The Despair Man

Yeah it is the end of 2017, another year passed and I am still here and being the same ordinary person again. In general, at least once a year I will login back to here and to sumarize my life throughout the year because I seems to be very forgetful all these days so I must find a way to keep me remember things that I have gone through. Once in a blue moon, reading the things I have shared here is also one of my entertainment too.

 Well, 2017 is not a very bad year by the way, at least i got myself travelled and visited few places. I went Krabi -> Chiang mai-> Bangkok -> Korea. I have also made videos of the places in order to keep me reminded with my joys back in the trips. I have no ideas why I will be going so many places this year. Every gang of my friends asked me for one place and thus ended up with all these places then, I guessed. Although I have spent somewhat extra on all these but the joys I had make me feel they worth it. I am getting POOR~~~~~ Argg!

When we gets old, we seem to be more afraid in making decision. This year, I want to make myself a good decision too, whether to stay or go, whether to let go or maintain, whether to give up or pushing forward. Positive and negative, black and white, it always drives people in dilemma. Well, I think I am kinda made up my mind though, cannot be staying intact there anymore, time to rock and rolls before we are too late to do so.

Anyhow, let’s pray for the best for 2018 as there are 2 more weeks to go only. First, I would like to try my luck in applying for working holiday, next, applying for new job and then get myself changing for new environment. But where is the best place and what job fits me the best? Pray ah Pray ah~ My Almighty Lord please grant me a good job and a new start toward the year of 2018. Bad job and working environment really drive people motiveless in doing everything.  No comments on that, lets everything turn all right in 2018. 

Happy New Year!!



Krabi 2017

Korea 2017

Colors of Life

How long i have left here actually? By looking back into my last post, it has been 365 and more days I have left my blog here intact. In this last week of 2016, I am here back to clean the dusty blog and today's topic is Colors of Life. So, first of all, what is life? For me, life is a process, a process where we are firstly formed from an ejaculated fluid and then swim through all the processes and grow up to become a youngster, teenager then adult and finally get old and rest in peace. Along the processes, we add in a lots of elements. We are granted the chances to experience sweet, sour, bitter and tough life.

For my life, what would it be like? Enjoying all the tastes of life? For the end of 2016, i felt glad that i have finally achieved one of my main goal in life where I turn my promises into reality by providing my family a new shelter. Bitterness has finally paid its efforts.

For me, moving house is not an easy task as the buying part, renovation part and furnishing part will definitely drive to become crazy. Despair, tiring, helpless and worries filled all the ways up. I bought the house back in 2014 and been saving for 2 years and doing most of the renovation parts by myself and yet it is still not enough! These include of land clearing, grass plantation, plumbing works, lighting and electrical appliances installation, tilling works and etc and yet it is over my budget by double! " Money Fly Fly " I can now officially declare that I am a bankruptcy! This is so called " 财散人安乐"? I can then doing nothing and enjoying my life now? Tougher life is yet to come! LIVE IT ON, James!

Anyhow I felt I am always well blessed and I am thankful for the blessing I have gotten all these while. Rejoice and praise the Lord. Looking forward to the day where I can feel myself revive again! Grant me strength and wisdom. Nevertheless, give thank to 2016 and all the best in 2017. Good things yet to come.

Happy New Year All!

HUAT AH!!

新的一年就这样过了两周，很多人都不断为自己许下了会带给自己好运的愿望。当然，这也可能就成为了一股无形的动力为自己加油打气。我呢，倒是觉得做一个谦卑人是很重要的。所以，这一年，我希望我能低调，谦卑，这样也许好运会长随我身旁。因为，最近我倒霉了。

这一年，突然觉得自己真的有老了。说真的，压力也大了，负担也当然大了。人长大了就是不一样，做什么都要靠自己了。买车买房，看起来是很容易，做起来相当不容易，买了房没了储蓄。两手空空，多么没安全感。不过，如果每个人都向别人要一个安全感，谁还会多一个给别人呢。所以，这一切的一切都得靠自己！

这一年，有很多东西想要做，想要学。怕就怕是三分钟没热度了。付出了金钱和时间但一无所有。所以，这里给自己一句话：死就死吧！现在不去做，不去试，将来后悔也只能责备自己。如果万一真的白费了心思，浪费了时间也不要紧。我深信，今天的失败都由于过去的不努力造成。但今天的努力，必有是将来的大收成。

每天上班下班，这种生活真的很没趣。不是不喜欢工作的性质。而是想到无论我多么努力，我银行里面每个月都只会汇入一样的薪金。这样就真的没趣了。我要做一个不简单的人，我就这样时常对自己说。当你将信心放在自己的身上是，你将永远充满力量。哈哈！

不经历风雨，怎能见彩虹。既靠天，也靠地，还靠自己。单单有奋斗精神是不够的，还需要脚踏实地一步一步地去做。要先分析自己的现状，分析自己现在处于什么位置，到底具备什么样的能力，你给自己定了目标，你还要知道怎么样去一步一步地实现这个目标。

常听人说 “机会面前，人人平等”，这是谁说的! 如果你不奋斗，不努力，没付出，你哪来平等啊。所以就有这么一个人说到：‘攫取成功的精神财产将永远贫富不均’。在浩瀚的生命之岸，你应该自豪地告诉世界，你追求过，你奋斗过，你为了辉煌的人生从来没有放弃过希望，从来没有停止过拼搏。而这个造就了万物的世界也将自豪而欣慰地回答你：只要奋斗不息，人生终将辉煌。


奔跑吧 2015！

LOVE

Love is a wonderful matter that it is hardly be able to explain by words. It can be shown is various of ways and even Adele sang a song ' To Make You Feel My Love'. This means that love is actually quite a complicated matter and that's why facebook is even having a relationship status called ' complicated'.

Despite, everyone says that loves hurts, but that’s not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuse these things with love but reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again. It depends on whether you are dare to take the steps to move forward. We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. So, when two people are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, no one can ever tear them apart.

We always claim that we loved a person that not supposed to be loved by us. We paid our effort so so so much that even we tear our heart apart just for him/her. In this world, love is always not work out in an equation. You spent 100% of your effort but you are not necessary to be get the return by 100%. Just like pouring water from one pail to another pail. You filled the first pail with 1 liter of water  and you start to pour the water from the first pail to the second ones. There is always some left behind the first pail that the second pail will never getting the 1 liter of water back. Same theory applies. Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it’s everything in between that makes it all worth living.

Sometimes you just need that one person who will let you talk and ramble listen to your complain and look like an idiot but still love you all the same. People might look you like an idiot but who knows you are an apple in him/her eyes. 

For me, I don mind to be and idiot in front of you if you know i am really meant to you. I will do my best just for you. Somehow, I am always feeling self-abased in this matter. Less confident to talk and communicate. I will try to talk but when i feel if people is just like reluctantly replying you i will pull myself out. I am always being miss-understood for being arrogant, strong, fearless and more.  It is hardly could be explained.

Yesterday, i listened to 2 songs and i repeatedly listening to these 2 songs for so many times. its touched especially the 后会无期. You must always remember the one that you met is not always be there and ready for you. It’s not hard to find someone who tells you they love you, its hard to find someone who actually means it. Falling in love is just like jumping from a really tall building, your brain tells you that it is never gonna be alright but  your heart tell you, you can fly. Therefore, why don't Just Fly! 

You are my destiny

后会无期

等。一个人

等？现在当你一说到等，别人都大概会联想到等一个人的咖啡了吧。这部戏第一天上映我就去戏院看了。看了有如再次点燃那早已熄灭爱的火花。觉得身边如果有一个人能一起分享你的一切一切其实是非常幸福的。不需要太多，这样就已经很足够了。但这火花很快就熄灭了消失在云烟之中。也许，这种感觉都只会在看戏才会有的吧。

这辈子能有多少次心跳加速、话都快说不出来的时刻呢？我没谈过恋爱，但我知道，一个对爱情有信仰的人，应该珍惜每一次心动的时刻，然后勇敢追寻下一次、再下一次、然后再下一次。哈哈，认识我的人都知道我就厉害就是说了。相信有很多人都同意戏里所说的，恋爱最甜美的部分就是暧昧，彼此猜测的过程，往往让人脸红心跳，往往叫人连做梦都无法忘记每一次说话时的紧张。

也有些时候，我曾路过你的心，不是我不想停留，而是你不肯收留。时常听人说，女生是一种很难懂的动物。女生常说：“男人没有一个是好东西。”所以当一个女生对你说：“你是个好人”时，你基本上就死了，因为你在她心目中已经正式退出了男人的行列，从而失去了进一步发展的可能。只有当一个女生对你说：“你这个死鬼”时，你才真是个好人，那时候你才真真稍微的看到一束光芒。女生有时就是多花样了一些。

在我这阶段的男生，很多时候就起了些矛盾，想爱又不想爱。原因就归于在，怕有了那个她又没时间陪她。让身边的她受委屈了。周末来一个简单的约会，久久来一次旅行，不知道这样朴素的恋爱方式是否还适合这繁华年代的女生吗？毕竟现在是打拼的时候，时间，金钱就是男人在成功道路上的武器。 不能过于奢侈。世上最凄绝的距离是两个人本来距离很远，互不相识，忽然有一天，他们相识，相爱，距离变得很近。然后有一天,不再相爱了，本来很近的两个人，变得很远，甚至比以前更远。

这个世界上，每个人都在等一个人。而在等的那个人呢......

人-生

人生，从字眼上看起来也就是人的一生。那究竟人的一生是要怎样过得呢。出世，成长，念书，工作，结婚，生病，死亡？曾有古人说过：“昔年移柳，依依江南，今看摇落，凄怆江潭，树由如此，人何以堪。从绿意盈盈到残叶纷飞，一生起落浮沉，我们像树一 样生长，最终也会像树一样颓然倒塌于地。这也许就是人生最透彻的定义吧！

人，一般都活在矛盾当中。人生就像一个摩天轮，转来转去，但最终兜兜转转还是回到原点！每天就是为了一些东西烦呀烦，以为找到了出路，结果原来跑回了原点。这就是“人 生”！其实，人生就像一盒巧克力，你永远不会知道下一颗巧克力是什么味道除非你买的巧克力全都是一样的味道。哈哈。

有时候，真的好想好想，什么都不做，就好好地趟在地上仰望一下蓝天碧云的天空，看看自由飞翔的小鸟，想想何谓人生。在我看来，人生就是要不断地做决定以确保你走的下一步是一步好棋。不过我相信人只要不失去方向，就不会失去自己因为人生重要的不是所站的位置，而是所朝的方向。每一件事都要用多方面的角度来看它。说当然容易啦。虽然我时常都会这样想，但是颓废的心情和思想都会把这一切摧毁。俗语说：理想的路总是为有信心的人预备着，可是就难啊。面对迷茫的前方有时候真的不知道要做什么决定好，也许我也太多顾虑了吧。也可能是这样，习惯了，一个人孤孤单单旳感觉。

读了一篇散文就说到，人，往往急于成长，然后又哀叹失去的童年；以健康换取金钱，不久后又想用金钱恢复健康；对未来焦虑不已，却又无视现在的幸福，既不活在当下，也不活在未来。人生短短几十年，不要在临死前才感叹自己仿佛从未活过。所以有时候是要放开点的。在感情上也一样。其实，缘分就像一本书。翻的不经意会错过童话读得太认真又会流干眼泪。既来之则安之吧。

何谓人生? 到头来就是’烦‘。

Strive for good

Day passed and go and yet the old is remaining. We grown and we remember the past. Everything passed is now a history or memory to you so that you can absorb some sort of teaching and striving for the next good.

Sometimes, we remember events which really happened, so memory is unlike pure imagination. Yet, in practice, there can be close interactions between remembering, perceiving, and imagining. Somehow, there is always a saying that when people is almost dead, there is always a flashback of their memory of their own deeds. Not sure whether it is true or false but the day will come and we will know in one day maybe?

By the way, i am thinking why human's mind is so complicated and yet so ridiculous sometimes. We will not only remembering the good but also the bad and sometimes we even come out with an evil thought that will cause harm to other people. We even cheat or lie to each other in order to get what we want. Most of the time people wont be able to appreciate the good until the bad they trusted betrayed them. Well, at this moment, i am already not so sure what i gonna express anymore. Ever since the incident, i think over-doing or over-caring to somebody will just messing up the formula and creating some sort of reversing chemical reaction sometimes. As i said, human is complicated, you will never know how's the mind is actually functioning on each.

Recently, i lost my ability in socializing. Less familiar to it. Not so sure why but the i-don-care feeling is gradually overwhelming me. Less access to my dusty guitar, keyboard, violin  anymore. Although i am not good at any one of them. Chasing after the petty pace look comfortable but unsatisfying definitely. Hmmmm.. no ideas really, gotta strive for good indeed i guess. LOL

Last but not least, i am glad that i was a student before as i have time to create all these so called self-composing song merely for self-entertaining. Felt so lovely and happy when listening back to these 3 years ago funny piece of shit. I have some creation for my dearest friends, my home and my myself anyways. Hahahahhaha 
(Plsease Ignore my out of tune, lousy skills or watsoever ok, just for funny and some laugther)

一生知己

 
家


 
相信明天

Hello*

Again, half a year has gone! Realizing that expectation is always lagging behind reality is a truth. What you expected will never gone too far but lagging behind the cruel of reality.

Yeah, once again plan changed. Dragging here and there and deciding to leave or not to leave but in the end i'm still here, stayed!  Staying not because of betterment but clinging on the slight hope that it will be better. Sound pity it seems.

Well, things change, people change, world change and earth is rather moving, you cant just expecting people to go into your plan. Sometimes, we are somewhat lost in the middle but believe me, if you do have strong faith, it might still within your expectation somehow.

Sigh, i shall get myself a getaway though. BTW, I'm just came back from a short trip last week. Bought the ticket all of a sudden to Laos. I guess not much people went there before. In short, not really a well developed country but you still manage to get yourself something new to explore. Infrastructure there are kinda bad by comparing to malaysia. To certain places, car speed will never be able to exceed 20km/h is terrible and you are non-stop experiencing the earthquake moment inside the car. This makes me feel thankful for what i'm having. People there are usually the chinese descendants as their grandparent or grand-grandparents are mostly chinese (according to the locals there). Therefore, you can always see many chinese-like lao there. Somehow, they are no longer be able to speak in chinese anymore. Besides that, the food are quite nice if you are able to eat spicy food. languages used there is lao but 80% same as thai so if you can speak in thai you can usually communicate well there. After this, i'm planning to visit cambodia and vietnam too. Must be at least visit our neighboring country once when i can.

Gosh! The feeling of starting work after a holiday is bad. Laziness is overwhelming me. Luckily, I am not alone and i made a new internship friend. Or else i will be a loner hero then. Work, eat, sleep, work are the sequences of my life. Anyway, half more year to go, lets see if there are miracles happen. Cheers~

 

Yummy Food

 

 Scenery Taken

Selfie Took During the Trip

你给我听好！

年龄+1

不知不觉又到了年龄+1的月份脸上的鱼尾纹又多了一条。渐渐的才发现，世界上最恐怖的，不是命运的不幸与坎坷，亦不是对手的强大与未知，也不是人性的软弱与懒惰，更不是自然灾害。我想，真正可怕的是时间。人长越大就觉得时间过的越快！但有了时间，就意味着一切都有转变的可能。
 
''我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停'' 对这歌词有印象吗？ 其实每次都想像歌词里写的，就是一个人到处走走停停看看这世界。很庆幸的是，在我步入年龄+1 的时候，我懂得了懒惰不会使一个人变得富有；我懂得了逃避不会使一件事得到解决；我懂得了虚伪不会使一个人变得有底气；我懂得了抱怨不会使一件事出现转机；我更懂得了理论不会使一个项目达到预期。这一些的懂得使我不断在提醒自己一定要努力！

不久之前，下了一个大决定，就是决定了再一次的离开我爱的家园 (如果没有太大的变数)。不知道这是否对错。原因是我觉得我逐渐变得懒散了，开始满足我现在的生活不想再去尝试新的东西了。虽然有点生在福中不知福的感觉但我宁可放手一搏也不要做那不敢冒险的人。时常听人说机会是留给有准备的人而我现在就是为我自己准备着呢。

今年对我来说，是一个崭新的一年。之所以这么说，因为等待我的，是一个崭新的里程碑，一个新的学习过程。如果有人问我今年愿望是什么，我则是会答 ‘桃花’ 哈哈哈！

最后，祝福身边的每一个人快乐，更加祝福此刻正在阅读关心我的朋友们，祝福大家快乐幸福，马年行大运！ 
 

最后送你们一首 ‘叶子’

WHY!!

Don't know why, my head is always filling up with these 3 words, W,H,Y recently. Whenever people is asking why it simply means that they are facing some uncertainties for sure. By the way, WHY is a great simple term to use whenever there is something questionable! Thats why, WHY is always appearing in my life.

Since after graduation and coming out to work, there are quite a lot of WHY appearing indeed! I am asking myself why am i studying, why am i working, why am i not born to be superhero, why are we so tiring? Aren't we always telling other to enjoy life ya? Eventually, we are the person who don really enjoying our lives. 

At first, i was thinking to work in hometown is a brilliant choice but eventually i think i made myself not really a happy choice. Not sure the reason why but i just don like the current me and the situation.
lifeless, bored and meaningless. I am always feeling i can do something better but now everything ended up with laziness. LOST OF directions! I know i shall always cherish the things that i possessed, a mom that well taken care of me but you know.. ah.. hard to say that kind of feeling.. 

Living a life with almost everyday the same routine is totally killing me! For me, i am totally hating it and FED UP! Maybe this is a must-going process for an ordinary people. Sometimes, i was thinking why people wanted a long life, how good if we just having 50 years or even 35 years of life wont it just good enough? We play, we enjoyed, we worked and we died. That's the process, short yet simple and enjoying.

Argg!! I think i need a short break seriously! I wanted to go some place and live myself alone but i have my worries, my burden my family. At the same time, when i stop i have no income, What a LIFE! Anyway, another uncelebrated day is just around the corner! Topping up of another digit on my current age and I wish i can always make my mind clear and alert what to do and in fact what is so hard about it actually?
 
SCREAM! SCREAM! i wanna Scream the hell out of it!! Maybe he is right, i might just a Passenger!

Passenger - Let Her Go

''Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies''

累

何謂累，累有幾種說法。有人說累是一種感覺，也有人說是一種反應，更有人說可能是一種無奈。 我個人就有兩個詮釋，就是一種讓人反應出不想理會和放棄的感覺或者一般人所指的就是純粹上肉體的累。人之所以会心累，就是常常徘徊在坚持和放弃之间，举棋不定。然而，在我們的生活裡，不是每一樣東西你付出了，堅持了就會換來好的成果，也有一些東西是我們一定要放棄的。所以，别让自己心累！应该学着想开，看淡，学着不强求，学着深藏，适时放松自己，寻找宣泄，给疲惫的心灵解解压。

每天過著一樣的生活真的感到很疲憊。早上醒來，上班，下班，吃飯，睡覺。這就是上班族一般過著的生活。一天的時間就這樣過了。一時，想找一點有意義的事情做也變得有心無力了。啊！！我什麼時候才能脫離這一切呢？唉，剛剛踏進社會的我就說這樣的話了，大志以及志氣也不知道跑到那裡去了。就像汪峰‘存在’裡的歌詞

誰知道我們該去向何處

誰明白生命已變為何物

是否找個借口繼續苟活

或是展翅高飛保持憤怒

知道嗎？人之所以会烦恼，就是记性太好。该记的，不该记的都会留在记忆里。而我们又时常记住了应该忘掉的事情，忘掉了应该记住的事情。为什么有人说傻人有傻福。傻瓜可爱、可笑，因为他忘记了人们对他的嘲笑与冷漠，忘记了人世间的恩恩怨怨，忘记了世俗的功名利禄，忘记了这个世界的一切，所以他活在自己的世界里随心所欲地快乐着，傻傻的笑着。

世界上没有完美无缺的东西，不完美其实才是一种美，只有在不断的争取，不断的承受失败与挫折时，才能发现快乐。人，永远是矛盾的主体，经常处在犹豫和憧憬的困惑中，夹在世俗的单行道上，走不远，也回不去。人，真的是一个难以琢磨的生灵，最了解自己的永远只有自己。還有些人，明白了，了解了可是不前進因為他選擇了止步。

生活不可能一帆风顺，开心是过一天，烦恼还是过一天，那为何不让自己开开心心地过上一天呢。新的一年盼望一帆風順吧～ 加油！

Chinese New Year

It is the only fifth day of the great Chinese New Year but i have started working already!! ArgHH!! I should have applied leaves and have more holidays. This is the so called 'working life' after graduation. Now, all are having our own lives where in usual days friends are hard to catch up with each others. Therefore, we should have always cherish the moment being with our relatives and friends if there are gatherings around.

Well, i have enjoyed the CNY very much by bullshitting with my friends. I am always thankful that i have many friends around me where i can always bump into and 'blow water' with them. Please bear with me if sometimes i am being over judgmental, self-centered or being autarchy. Somehow, great holiday is always ended with tired soul. Waking up early in the morning but sleep late at the night really feeling terrible. I was like wanted to sleep all the times now. 

Anyhow, it is so blessed that i can have a great dinner with my gang of good friends before they are leaving and back to their working lives. Great for meeting up you guys and hope that we can always keeping in touch. For friends who are not be able to show your face in the gathering not to worry ya, we can always have another gathering for you guys. Wish you guys having a prosperous year and turn all the wished wishes become real. Happy Chinese New Year and 開工大吉! HAHA!!

                                                           

                                                                   全家福 

(Please ignore my stupid head and tired look ^.^)

The Aunties! 

結束該結束的

不知不覺，一年就這麼過去了，很快的我最喜歡的聖誕節也要再等361天才能再次地度過。每一年，我都對自己說要過一個特別的聖誕節可是，往往每年都過著一樣的聖誕。 真的好想過個白色聖誕節，穿著厚厚的毛衣，看著天上下不完的白雪，你說是不是人生的一大樂趣呢？

三天后，2014年就要來臨了，我期望的就是快快樂樂以及健健康康地過生活罷了。簡單的事我們來做，難的事就留給上帝再做安排吧。住该记住的，忘記该忘记的。改变能改变的，接受不能改变的。也就還是這一句。哈哈！

隨著時間的流逝，我也覺得我越來越老了，但其實我也越來越有價值了。俗語說，眼淚的存在，是为了证明悲傷不是一场幻觉。相信過去的一年，每一個人都有自己的喜怒哀樂，然而，新的一年裡，讓一切都重新開始吧。因為生命太过短暂，今天放弃了明天不一定能得到。就好像我一樣，每天告诉自己一次，我真的很不错， 要铭记在心：每天都是一年中最美好的日子。人老了，真的做什麼都懶了，以前每想到一樣東西就一定要做到才行。可是，現在偶爾想出去走走可是想想就不想去了。想為朋友做些什麼聚會的，想多一想連自己都沒心了！

在新的一年裡，我為自己定下了不少的目標，但是人生樣樣起步難！最近看到了一句話，那裡說到，一个如果能从别人的观念来看事情，能了解别人心灵活动的人，永远不必为自己的前途担心。覺得這句很有意思可是東西往往都看起來簡單可是做起來就難了。只能說：努力吧！

最近，真的覺得好悶哦！又是過回那有規律又沒樂趣的生活，每天除了上班就是上班。下班的時後，好久才有一次機會看到日落的陽光。公司的停車場也就剩那最後的一兩輛車罷了。我真的好想去旅行哦！！ 我也好想念讀書的日子啊！

生命就是一个逐渐支出和利用时间的过程。一旦丧失了时间，生命也就走到了尽头。 所以，好好的過最後三天的2013年。為這一年留下一個美好的句點吧。朋友們，愛你哦，我們明年再見！

祝大家新年快樂哦~

All of a Sudden

All of a sudden! Ticket bought -> leave applied -> bag packed -> bus boarded -> Thailand

After boarding on a 10 hours bus journey i finally reached the city. Then, I looked around the city and realized that the place here is totally out of my imagination in terms of its environment, building, street and people there.

Well, once after i got down from the bus i started to look for the famous dim sum being recommended by some bloggers. After a 10 mins walk distance i reached the shop and the shop is packed with people. The dim sum there tasted slightly different though the outlook is almost the same. Somehow, some of the dishes here are delicious especially the char siew pau! I ate alot and it is surprisingly cheap when i paid the bill! It is only rm1.80-rm2.50 per plate or per dish.

Then, i went for a bowl of bird nest. Not to say the bird nest is fake but the taste is more towards to sugar soup. Still, my mommy homemade bird nest soup is the best! They are so pure and slurping!

During the night time, i went to the pasar malam there to have some walk. After i done with walking. Next, i went into 7-11 there to buy a bottle of milk and head back to my room. I drank n slept after that.

This is a short trip for me and no ones ever realized of my missing as well but i am back then! haha! 
 
After all, it is sounded like a boring trip huh? Well, it depends solely. For me, i am simply enjoying it. I take this as kind of reflection trip. Life is like a bowl of cherries. Some cherries are rotten while others are good; its your job to throw out the rotten ones and forget about them while you enjoy eating the ones that are good! There are two kinds of people: those who choose to throw out the good cherries and wallow in all the rotten ones, and those who choose to throw out all the rotten ones and savor all the good ones. Therefore, Keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you or otherwise.

Lucky Dim Sum & Bak Kut Teh

 

 

 Drooling Dim Sum!

Bird-nest

Pasar Malam

Mango glutinous rice

Perseverance of Life

Halloween was just passed and many people are getting excited with this great festival.Well, i don think it would be the same towards me. It is just another normal day for me but somehow my frens were suggesting to have some gathering as celebration though

Yeah, we did made it for a gathering in heli lounge. The scenery there is cool and nice and it is the very first time for me to be there. Sitting on the rooftop, wind breezing, car moving, and looking at all the building underneath u is feeling great. I was just wishing how nice if i can throw all my problems down there and they are just vanished in a second.

Recently, i tried to expose myself more and trying to talk to more people and i guessed i am not really a good talker. I do not know what to talk and my speech would always be irritating. i might not owning a good communication skills and I always hope i can be more frenly and easy going. Friends would not feel bad for talking to me and a fren who give comment is a fren indeed. So, comment me.

Time passes and people grows. Dreams and hopes are always the key to keep us moving forward and fighting for it. What if a people with no hopes or dreams? Are they destined to be a failure? We cant judge a person by its cover. You will never know what the person has gone through or experienced before. Sometimes, what you have seen and what you have heard are not necessary to be the truth. It is depending on whether you choose to believe it blindly or cling on your faith. But, sometimes giving someone a second chance is like giving them an extra bullet for their gun because they missed you the first time. Thus, faith and understanding is very important in every kind of relationship.

Well, Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want. Good things come to those who wait… greater things come to those who get off their ass and do anything to make it happen. Great things din juz come in a sudden, we reap what we sow. This is how perseverance works. 

毕业咯！！

終於畢業了，怎样？有帅到，有型吗？有的话就表扬一下嘛。哈哈。这一天，感触良多，朋友的聚集，家人的欢笑声。心里就樂了。大家拍了很多照片。太兴奋了！好怀念大学的生活。还在念书的，真的要好好享受一下，别那么烦恼。这个时候是最佳的时候慢慢思考想想你的梦想，理想和你要走的路。穿着这一身毕业袍，都没有想过会有这一天，真的要感谢我妈妈这一路来的坚持，鼓励以及劝勉。人生是要有這麼多的波折才能换来稍微好一点的生活。跌倒了，学习了，再站起来吧。有什么难的。

有时候，面子这东西，不能太在意，因为，它会让你失去很多东西。后悔，每一个人都会有，我后悔的事还多的是呢，难道因为面子这东西而放不下就放弃吗？人总是在成长的过程中学习，对了就做，错了想一想，改正再出发。事情永远都向简单的方向想最好，面子算什么，把握该要把握的，做认为对的事最重要。俗語說，機會是留給有準備的人。這個時候我就真的認同了，以前，聽到這一句話都覺得是屁話，但是，畢業了，出來了，這句話對我來說是真的了。

问题天天都多，就是看你怎样看待以及回应。我们大家都没有能力知道未来是怎样。因为事情因为人而改变，人也因为环境而改变。世上没有人是完美的。只有不停的進步，改變，東西才會變好。還記得，上個星期好友送我的一句話，也就是上帝的話語：‘’ You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future.God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.‘’

這輩子，慶幸的事就是朋友多！一副臭臉的我，真的不太有人想接近我。感謝，我四年的好室友，第一天踏進房裡的時候就對我微笑了，第一晚，我們還來了一小段pillow talk 呢。 但那次之後就沒了。不開心的時候，還有隨時隨刻 stanby 的 dota kaki 出去瘋狂一下。 這還不是人生一大樂趣嗎？

四年裡，太多太多的朋友要感謝了。有教會的朋友，家鄉的朋友們，以及來自不同地方而聚集在一起唸書的好友們！我太愛你們了。還記得，畢業典禮完後的那一晚，回到房裡的時候傻傻的望著天花板，多麼想回到讀書的那時候。人就是那樣的，有的時候不會去珍惜，到沒有的時候就懷念。

然而，在大学的生活犹如一本书，打开书，每一个故事都记录了一段单纯的起伏，故事里终究会有遗憾，会有叹息，会有泪滴，要不就是青涩的年纪，就没有酸涩的回忆。请相信，一切暂别的都要重聚，一切遗憾的都要圆满。 我想打开心灵的窗扇寻找太阳，窗外孕育着小草，树苗如此茁壮，那不是它们的顽强是什么？并不是每个人都一定要有别人期待的成功好知识，有自己的特长、兴趣，就去奋斗！朋友，请相信：风雨过后是彩虹，春天来到有绿地，让我们的生活变成五彩缤纷的世界！岁月的河流上，会流走很多很多。相逢时的那片红叶，也会褪色吗？

我的朋友们，我们要暂时分别了；“珍重珍重”的话，我也不再说了。在这欲去未去的夜色里，努力铸造几颗小晨星；虽然没有多大光明，但也能使那早行的人兴奋。动身的时刻到了，让我们走吧！不必惋惜，也无需离别，纵使歌声渐渐地沉寂下去，我们的心也会永远地跳荡不息。最後來一首詩吧！

有一种感觉总在失眠时,才承认是“相思”……
有一种缘分总在梦醒后,才相信是“永恒”……
有一种目光总在分手时,才看见是“眷恋”……
有一种心情总在离别后,才明白是“失落”……  

 

What a life

What life is all about? We have friend and family around and whenever we r being with fren or family, we always pretending that we r ok n fine. Sometimes it is very tiring. Soon, another best fren of mine gonna leaving me and i feel so heart pain becoz it is very hard to find a fren that willing to spend time n listening to ur problem n help u. I do have many frens and all of them treated me very well. I love them all but i m kind of person always keeping my own feeling hoping that my negative aura will not spread to them. 

Recently, i have some problem. I feel very stressed. And of coz as an engineer (i m not boasting about myself, don missunderstood) ,  it is not easy and it is part of my planning to gather some sum of money n fulfilling my dream of building up my own career. I have my own planning becoz i have a dream, a dream to become better. I wan to prepare myself for my family, my future wife.. I love the people surrounding n i want them to feel comfort with me. But i really don noe how to speak sometimes but i willing to improve and i m still improving. I believe that i have my own confident in all aspect but whenever come to relationship matter and not merely on boy girl relationship but even family and friends i will suppress my feeling. I try to cover myself with smile and i know this is not right but i love them all. I m kind of person that not really good in expressing myself. Deep down in my heart i keep worrying myself for not be able to do my best. I m not a emo guy. Our life is filling with hope all the times it is just depending how we going to treat it. 

Whenever i think i m not qualified n prepare i will not going in plan. But why people always looking down and missunderstood me. As a fren said, if u think you are good, you don have to tell how good you are and soon u will prove how good you are. Time will prove everything.I m totally agreed with this and time will prove everything n what i need is chances. Hope everything will be fine and tmr is another great start. 

开什么玩笑！开心又谦卑的 James Liew 回来啦。哈哈哈~ 

进步= 丰富人生

人生就是要不停地进步，我们不能为了那一点小事就在原地止步。天大地大，难道我们就要为了那一点永远看不开的东西执着吗？ 以前的我，做事粗心，从来不顾后果，我行我素，开心就好。这样对吗？ 有时，回复地想起旧事也不是不好，至少它让我知道我有进步，我变了，不是变坏了，而是变好了，而且还会更好。我无时无刻都在感谢，感谢身边的人从来没放弃我。那些对我绝望的人让我提起脚步，迈进成工的一步。当然，我现在还没成功啦。哈哈

离开家里的四年，让我学习了很多，至少我学会独立，不让家人担心。也许，不知从何开始，我抱着明天的希望会让我们忘了今天的痛苦这理念，不停地让自己进步。我感谢身边帮过我，以及陪我一起长大的朋友们。没有了你们，我都不知道怎样了。外表随和，可是内心孤僻的我有好长一段时间，不停的在问自己到底要什么，最终还是没有答案。然而，不知不觉，我走到了今天。从一个，被老师认为永远不会读好书的坏学生，一路上慢慢的迈进，结果最终成功的毕业了。我永远除了感谢我的啊爸天父之外就是我妈妈了。可能，小的时候，真的真的是家境不好吧。妈妈一天要打三份工来维持家里的需要。早上五点起床，做到晚上的十一点。跟我们说话的时间很少，要是我做错事了，不是挨藤条就是皮带了。我很感激我不是有钱家庭出身，因为更加让我知道什么是珍惜和节俭。真所谓，贪婪是最真实的贫穷，满足是最真实的财富。我们要自己努力创造我们的未来，因为上帝从不埋怨人们的愚昧，人们却埋怨上帝的不公。这又何必呢，凡事都要感谢才是对的。有时，进来写写东西特别地舒服，因为藏在心底的话不是故意要去隐瞒，只是不是所有的疼痛都可以呐喊。好了，是时候睡觉了，晚安～

End of University Life~

We are always being taught with a proverb since we were young which is times flies and yet time flies indeed. This is a common life cycle that everyone on this earth will ever came across . During our university life, we will always thinking that it is a long journey to go in order to complete a 4 year bachelor degree course. In the other way, whenever we are reaching the last day of it and now everyone is complaining about times passing just in a glimpse and it is superb fast.

Today, it is the last day of my university life and tomorrow morning most of us will be going back to our own hometown and start working and for sure will be leading a hectic life soon, i guess. Some of them are going to singapore but many of them are staying locally wishing that they will be able to take care of their family members especially their parents while they are working. This is same goes with me as i finally chose to stay in my own hometown and working there. Since i am away from home for 4 year times already since the start of my bachelor degree, i think it is time for me to go back to the place where i am belonged. I wish i am not making a wrong choice anyway. 

Somehow, the saddest moment is always the  moment where friends who are like brothers have to be separated. Friends are always like pieces of puzzle where they mix and match to make our life as beauty as million worth portrait or picture. It also helps to enrich our lives. I am always cherished the moment for spending together with them of course. This month, i am totally enjoyed myself. After the end of the final exam, we started to eat hard and play hard. We played back all the childish games we used to play when we were young like those cards games, visiting cyber cafe, climbing the walls fighting who can climb higher and even playing the ancient game that we used to play last time which is the Counter Strike. 

As the chinese says '天下无不散之宴席‘ and i am happy with what i am now and thank to everyone that we are managed to have many group photos to keep it as memory. Good luck all my friends! Hope we all can always keeping in touch and wish all of you the best in your lives! Don ever forget me and guess who am I? Yes i am James, James Liew- the one who always talk 10 sentences even you believe any single phrase of it you also will die that James~ HAHA~

Although i am always talking nonsense and bluffing around or you all can always saying me ' blow water' but actually what i spoken out there is always having somewhat truth proportion where i am not totally bluffing. If i did spoken out something that hurting your feeling and here, i would like to apologize and beg for your forgiveness! I will definitely missing you all especially those who always come and talk to me and disturb me like my Gang of Dota Kaki and basketball mates. You guys know who you are yea~ For girls' coursemate, what i said sometimes i just meaning to have some jokes only, don ever keep it in heart yea~ You know, i am a good man right? haha~ Okay! Wish we all are always in LUCK! BYE!

Graduation 畢業篇

記得小時候，我特別喜歡這句老師教的諺語，那就是，一寸光陰一寸金，寸金難買寸光陰。這是代表了時間流逝地非常快，我們要珍惜時間呀！一贊眼就四年了，這個月是最後一個月讓我和我朋友們在大學快快樂樂相聚的時光了。之後全部都要各奔西東咯。

Before this, there are many question marks in my head. This is because there are too many choices for me to choose for my future. I do made up a decision that continue for Phd previously but it seems to be a tough journey and i am actually realizing that i am not having that much of passion anymore in studying. I am now more keen to moeny, money and MONEY! This is the one of the society sickness that making everybody is so looking up on the money. 5 years are just too long for me i guess because i am too ambitious and my family is needing me so i have to come out and work. 

Previously, dilemma really killing me either pursuing study or working and now even the dilemma is killing me again by making a decision whether to stay in Malaysia or going to Singapore. Somehow, i am very gracious and thank God that i have quite a number of choices to make. Some local companies are offering a great salary to me. There are also few companies from Singapore which are not too bad as well in term of the salary. Anyway, i am actually making a decision to go to a company in Singapore and signing up for a 2.5 years contract there this coming tuesday but all in sudden my mind is starting to have some discussion whether staying in Malaysia will be a better choice in order to success faster? Haiz, it is hard to make a firm decision again!

Subsequently, if i am going to Singapore meaning that i can only coming back to meet my mom and my family members once in a long while. I do hope i can earn as much as possible so that i can let my mom and my dad enjoy their life when they reach 60 meaning that i am still having 10 more years to work on it so that they can put down all the burdens the have in us and enjoy their lives. My parents have worked so hard for us 4 siblings in order to get us what the other children is having during their childhood and teen age. Since we are from a poor family when we was young but somehow they manged to get us some toys no matter it is new or 2nd hand. By the way, i am only managed to remember that i am only having a brand remote racing car when i was young. Somehow, i cherished for what i am having. Last year, my mom and dad managed to board on a plane and going to Sabah for their very first time vacation. I do hope i can sponsor them a luxurious vacation each year later when i am coming out to work later on. Therefore, if someone who are so bad luck to become my girl friend, please do not blame me for not buying LV, Gucci, Prada those.If you think you deserve for all these i think u better find another man who are managed to do so. Not to say i don willing to spend just that i think spending wisely is very important in planning for future. This is also another harsh part in my life as i am having quite a high requirement in acquiring a girl friend. For example, look decent, medium size, around 160-168cm height, if possible having a double eyes lid and prominent nose face features. haha, i think i surely still sleeping and keeping myself in my dreamland that's why i still being single since i was born.

Somehow, university life is ending soon and i surely missing it very much with a bunch of silly coursemates by keep calling me handsome james or bomber king 大炮王。The day of doing gym, plying basketball, swimming together all will be ended soon. Wish you guys to be having a great future and not forgetting me! If anyone of you read my blog please remember to keep in touch with me after the graduation and invite me for the wedding dinner yea! This is my promise, no matter how far and where is you wedding is located i will be there!