End of University Life~

We are always being taught with a proverb since we were young which is times flies and yet time flies indeed. This is a common life cycle that everyone on this earth will ever came across . During our university life, we will always thinking that it is a long journey to go in order to complete a 4 year bachelor degree course. In the other way, whenever we are reaching the last day of it and now everyone is complaining about times passing just in a glimpse and it is superb fast.

Today, it is the last day of my university life and tomorrow morning most of us will be going back to our own hometown and start working and for sure will be leading a hectic life soon, i guess. Some of them are going to singapore but many of them are staying locally wishing that they will be able to take care of their family members especially their parents while they are working. This is same goes with me as i finally chose to stay in my own hometown and working there. Since i am away from home for 4 year times already since the start of my bachelor degree, i think it is time for me to go back to the place where i am belonged. I wish i am not making a wrong choice anyway. 

Somehow, the saddest moment is always the  moment where friends who are like brothers have to be separated. Friends are always like pieces of puzzle where they mix and match to make our life as beauty as million worth portrait or picture. It also helps to enrich our lives. I am always cherished the moment for spending together with them of course. This month, i am totally enjoyed myself. After the end of the final exam, we started to eat hard and play hard. We played back all the childish games we used to play when we were young like those cards games, visiting cyber cafe, climbing the walls fighting who can climb higher and even playing the ancient game that we used to play last time which is the Counter Strike. 

As the chinese says '天下无不散之宴席‘ and i am happy with what i am now and thank to everyone that we are managed to have many group photos to keep it as memory. Good luck all my friends! Hope we all can always keeping in touch and wish all of you the best in your lives! Don ever forget me and guess who am I? Yes i am James, James Liew- the one who always talk 10 sentences even you believe any single phrase of it you also will die that James~ HAHA~

Although i am always talking nonsense and bluffing around or you all can always saying me ' blow water' but actually what i spoken out there is always having somewhat truth proportion where i am not totally bluffing. If i did spoken out something that hurting your feeling and here, i would like to apologize and beg for your forgiveness! I will definitely missing you all especially those who always come and talk to me and disturb me like my Gang of Dota Kaki and basketball mates. You guys know who you are yea~ For girls' coursemate, what i said sometimes i just meaning to have some jokes only, don ever keep it in heart yea~ You know, i am a good man right? haha~ Okay! Wish we all are always in LUCK! BYE!

Graduation 畢業篇

記得小時候，我特別喜歡這句老師教的諺語，那就是，一寸光陰一寸金，寸金難買寸光陰。這是代表了時間流逝地非常快，我們要珍惜時間呀！一贊眼就四年了，這個月是最後一個月讓我和我朋友們在大學快快樂樂相聚的時光了。之後全部都要各奔西東咯。

Before this, there are many question marks in my head. This is because there are too many choices for me to choose for my future. I do made up a decision that continue for Phd previously but it seems to be a tough journey and i am actually realizing that i am not having that much of passion anymore in studying. I am now more keen to moeny, money and MONEY! This is the one of the society sickness that making everybody is so looking up on the money. 5 years are just too long for me i guess because i am too ambitious and my family is needing me so i have to come out and work. 

Previously, dilemma really killing me either pursuing study or working and now even the dilemma is killing me again by making a decision whether to stay in Malaysia or going to Singapore. Somehow, i am very gracious and thank God that i have quite a number of choices to make. Some local companies are offering a great salary to me. There are also few companies from Singapore which are not too bad as well in term of the salary. Anyway, i am actually making a decision to go to a company in Singapore and signing up for a 2.5 years contract there this coming tuesday but all in sudden my mind is starting to have some discussion whether staying in Malaysia will be a better choice in order to success faster? Haiz, it is hard to make a firm decision again!

Subsequently, if i am going to Singapore meaning that i can only coming back to meet my mom and my family members once in a long while. I do hope i can earn as much as possible so that i can let my mom and my dad enjoy their life when they reach 60 meaning that i am still having 10 more years to work on it so that they can put down all the burdens the have in us and enjoy their lives. My parents have worked so hard for us 4 siblings in order to get us what the other children is having during their childhood and teen age. Since we are from a poor family when we was young but somehow they manged to get us some toys no matter it is new or 2nd hand. By the way, i am only managed to remember that i am only having a brand remote racing car when i was young. Somehow, i cherished for what i am having. Last year, my mom and dad managed to board on a plane and going to Sabah for their very first time vacation. I do hope i can sponsor them a luxurious vacation each year later when i am coming out to work later on. Therefore, if someone who are so bad luck to become my girl friend, please do not blame me for not buying LV, Gucci, Prada those.If you think you deserve for all these i think u better find another man who are managed to do so. Not to say i don willing to spend just that i think spending wisely is very important in planning for future. This is also another harsh part in my life as i am having quite a high requirement in acquiring a girl friend. For example, look decent, medium size, around 160-168cm height, if possible having a double eyes lid and prominent nose face features. haha, i think i surely still sleeping and keeping myself in my dreamland that's why i still being single since i was born.

Somehow, university life is ending soon and i surely missing it very much with a bunch of silly coursemates by keep calling me handsome james or bomber king 大炮王。The day of doing gym, plying basketball, swimming together all will be ended soon. Wish you guys to be having a great future and not forgetting me! If anyone of you read my blog please remember to keep in touch with me after the graduation and invite me for the wedding dinner yea! This is my promise, no matter how far and where is you wedding is located i will be there!

 

光陰似箭

光陰似箭，很快的就要結束了2012年迎來了2013年，就這樣也就代表著對我23歲的歲月畫上了句點。現在沒有什麼盼望，就希望明年會是一個好年，好讓我所做的決定都是對的，一帆風順，順順利利，馬到工成就可以了。我時常想，如果我能像我中學時期學的一首小詩那樣瀟灑就好，我輕輕地走，正如我輕輕地來，揮一揮衣袖，不帶走一片雲彩。 那我們就不會為了很多東西而煩。

我想我對我繼續讀書的這個念頭應該會被打消了，因為我發覺我嚴重的缺錢，還是乖乖畢業後出來打工，嘗試一下出來打天下的感覺吧.要是真的拿了PHD才來後悔那就真的是不歸路了。希望大家也一起加油，結束對2012年的不滿開啟你們對2013的期望和規劃。一起想著標杆直跑啊！

哈哈，想起聖誕節那一天就高興了，相隔一年我又可以和我的家人拍了第四張的全家福，這一張照片裡還多了一個姐夫呢。 我們的樣子應該沒什麼變吧？ 當天，也有幾位朋友受邀來到我的教會一起慶祝聖誕節，當然也希望他們能在這個快樂的佳節裡不要一個人度過，至少還有我們互相的陪伴最適合我們這些單身寡人了。牧師給聖誕節的訊息也非常好，希望他們真的有仔細聆聽吧。

到教會一起慶祝的朋友

另外，也很感謝我的小學朋友，我的大姐大，美玉。因為她很有心思的為我們籌備了聖誕晚宴好讓我們一般朋友能夠聚一聚。她還怕我們感受不到聖誕節的氣氛所以自己準備我們全部人的小禮物，好讓我們可是來個交換禮物。對我這些從來沒受禮物收也不準備禮物的人真的帶來了一份溫馨。 以前這些聚會我都會時不時辦的。因為我不想我們真的有一天會失散，但是不懂程幾何時我就沒辦這些東西了，每天只是呆在家裡面和大學的宿舍裡，耍emo的。很久很久很久都沒有出門。哈哈。

小學和一些中學朋友

當然，我那一幫非常要好的中學朋友也有一些節目，我們都把我們那差不多20人的成員想像以及變成一個小村莊而我身為他們的村長盡然什麼都沒做，emo了差不多兩年，沒有辦什麼活動的。現在，這個村莊好像又活躍了起來不過不是因為我，而是裡面的村民互相照顧，關懷彼此而換來的成果，我想我該開一個村莊大會另選村長了。哈哈哈。

最後，新的一年裡，希望這個拜六開始的大考順順利利，拿個好成績。 也希望身體健健康康的，萬事如意， 開開心心等待華人新年啦！！

我的家人

End of the World

I am starting this post and writing this at the right of 12.00 am mid night according the the GMT +8.00 time region. Well, suppose it should be in the prediction and i am running for my life now saving my families and all my valuable things. But, it seems calm than ever and people are all sleeping early and wishing to get a nice dream before they die? Death is not what I really fear of.

I still remember a day before now, friend telling me that it is time to tell someone u love and let them know how you feel to them before the world ends. Nevertheless, make a promise with them saying that if this world is not ending then we might be together and some sort of those words. What a funny dramatic sequences. haha. Somehow, target to spill out those words is always my problem. I am always wondering izzit my speaker having some problem that not hearing any pop sound from my facebook? haha.I got quite some number of friends in there what? you know what i meant. If facebook is not really widely use that most of the assignment and class replacement information are stated there i guess i would keep my account deactivated most of the time. Somewhat hate it!

Well, Everyone is really sleeping early today and now the clock has already ticked 12.15am, 21/12/2012 in the morning. I guess i shall go to bed and have a dream as well.. Good Night!

我至今的人生

離世界末日的預言還有十多天罷了。很多人認識了我那麼久其實對我並沒有什麼了解吧，我想。 其實，我蠻想世界末日的來臨因為我們為世界所煩惱的東西都可以迎刃而解多麼地輕鬆呀。有時，我真的很想分享一下我的人生給我周圍的人聽，可是，他們都一定認為我說的都是廢話。不管怎樣，突然間，有感而發，我想在我的部落裡寫下我的經過，哪怕我的一生只有區區的二十三年。哪怕有一天突然不在了，也有人記得我是誰。生命變化無常嘛。

故事就要從小開始說起了。在我還沒有五歲時，我都是住在鄉下裡。我還記得那時我家裡窮得要命。爸媽必須在城市裡打拼而且我有四個兄弟姐妹包括我。姐姐和大弟就跟爸媽去城市住而我和我最小的弟弟就在鄉下就是Linggi裡居住。 這個安排可能是我媽媽要我們那些做大的可以照顧小的吧。反正，我不會為了誰能去城市住而不開心。相反，我感謝我媽把我留在鄉下裡讓我更加地體會到有些人不曾有機會體會到的生活和樂趣。我還記得，那時我和我的外婆和小舅是那個地區的唯一一戶華人。我們那裡只有不到十五間家。圍繞著我們的都是印度人。我還時常和他們一起玩，釣魚，打架，河邊捉魚等。到現在，我都不明白那時我們是怎樣溝通的。我還記得何年何日的某一天我還去了我隔壁鄰居的家和那逐漸消失在我記憶中的印度姑娘一起點那個在頭上的那一粒痣，跟他們一起吃東西慶祝他們的節日。覺得小時候太無憂無慮了，好開心。還有，每天的早上我一定準時的起身然後喝了外婆為我準備的茶和早餐我就一定到處去跑了。我一個人到河邊捉魚，爬樹。不知道為什麼，在我記憶裡我就記得這兩個活動罷了。有時，我還自己偷偷去店裡偷老闆的冰淇淋和糖果然後跑回家給外婆和小弟吃。哈哈。想到都開心。我外公那時還在，他捉過一隻蝙蝠回來，不知道是為了什麼。我還記得我一直拿鐵條插它的翅膀，想回去覺得自己很壞。還有一次，外公帶回來了一隻在果園裡受傷的猴子，那時它乖乖的在我面前，靜靜地坐著，我摸了摸它逗了它一下，結果它都不理我。表情很悲哀那樣。我就好心做壞事了這個時候。我還以為它是口渴然後我給它喝水結果它有反應了。它好像很口渴我就一直給它喝水結果它突然間口吐血絲不久後還一動不動的死了。我那時也不知如何是好，不過我想我不應該把它的屍體留在我家吧所以我就把從它丟去了河裡。那時我才五歲。空閒時，小舅會去屋頂上捉幾隻小鳥也不知道外面人叫什麼然後就bbq還是炸給我們吃。哈哈。不過，六歲要到了。也是時間要去讀幼兒園了。過後媽媽就把我接回去讀書。

然而，小的時候我壞的不得了，如果小學跟我同班還是一起讀書的朋友們就知道了。我還記得我二年級那年我讀了半年A班然後半年B班原因是我太壞了不能留在A班所以老師把我丟去B班。不過，天生我才必有用，我有點小聰明因為我不用什麼讀書也不可能會考到25名以外。班裡有50個人但一直以來我都會在15-25名裡徘徊。 結果，下一年我又回到了A班直到六年級。小學的時候，我算是學校的風雲人物吧。只要提到我的名字沒有一個老師不知道。我姐姐那時還告訴我一句話，我現在還記得就是‘你可以不可以不要那麼壞蛋，害到我每天被校長用報告的叫去辦公室，弄到我很丟臉’。慢慢說起吧，有聽過我說我小時候的朋友千萬不要以為我在吹水哦。在我二年級那一年，有一位教我馬來文的老師不知道為什麼把我罰去做垃圾位，然後一直藐視我。還一直把我當作example來講課。頓時，真的很生氣結果一腳把我前面的桌子踢到然後用手指著她的臉大聲說了一句粗口‘你媽的臭嗨’（粵語）。結果，她很生氣地把我拉去校長室裡。此刻，就開始了我人生的record就是被記了一個大過。接著，三年級，早上到了學校沒有晨讀跑了下去學校外面的店裡轉雞蛋和玩tikam。 最衰的是，校長經過看到我結果最後又是被叫到了校長室裡又記了一個大過。到了四年級，更厲害了，進第二副校長室偷被沒收回來的digimon機然後拿去賣，到第一副校長室偷看要考的考卷紙然後分享給朋友結果隔壁班不爽我去report，我又中招了。還有一次，還被校長在週會鞭打屁股三鞭因為黃飛鴻的腳癢了走去踢剛油好漆的牆壁結果忍不住哭了。真丟臉！因為小時候家裡很窮所以每天給人笑。我不能跟他們有同樣的話題因為他們家裡有電腦有game打。我什麼都沒有，只有爛腳車一輛。我求了我媽媽好久好久應該有一年多了。我媽媽看到我求到都要哭了，真的我有哭，我說別人全部都有電腦玩為什麼我沒有。一直罵一直罵結果媽媽不忍心看到我傷心買了一台給我。我還以為這一次可以炫耀一次了，可是同學都不相信我會有電腦，還問我知道什麼是monitor嗎？那時我真的很想打人。可是有些人就是那樣的不能怪他們但是我是一個很好記憶的人。永遠都記得任何發生在我身上的事情。不過我不記仇的，永遠不會生氣一個人多過半天。就如聖經所說的，不要含怒到日落。

中學時期的我和我姐姐

到了初中，日子還是一樣地過，一般要好的朋友也一起升到了一樣的中學 結果又是時候一起胡鬧了。哈哈。初中一覺得自己很乖，只是逃課和去捉那些轉說中的‘豹虎’罷了。不過，還是有一點事情發生了。有一個白痴的印度人還是我的同班同學。每天只會跟我說一句話，‘come la, one on one' 我覺得他頭腦是不是有問題，這麼多人不要挑戰要挑戰我，我每一次都跟他說‘tak mau la， saya kalah punya’ 但是，他從來不會放棄挑戰我，一有機會就會再來一句，‘ come la， one on one’。 我認為我有信心一定會贏他的而且當我真的出手的時候我真的會很重手。不過，悲劇還是發生了，就在我跟他在鬥‘豹虎’的時候他的那隻輸了，我就很有風度的說不要緊，再去捉過可能可以贏我。但是，他很不服氣，一掌把我的‘豹虎’打死了。我非常的生氣，因為我不知道在樹林裡呆了多久和餵飽了多少隻蚊子換回來的寶貝。當我再跟他爭吵時，他一拳打了我的鼻子，這個時候我的火都來了。結果，我拿起來我平時做的那張椅子想往他的頭那裡打下去時，我的三位朋友捉著了我的椅子不要讓我打下去，不然我看我會狠狠的打到看到血為止。我十年都不生氣一次這一次真的火都來了。到最後，我們還是放過了他。不過，他就是好像找死一樣。盡然敢把我和我朋友們一起做的BM folio 偷去然後改名字交！我立刻去找他可是那時放學了。我找到半死結果在校車裡找到他了。我和我一個朋友一起在車上跟他吵架，車上都是印度人，我們越罵越大聲，結果周圍的印度人都知道發生了什麼事，叫人稀奇的事全部一起喊‘pukul dia，pukul dia’ 我看他平時應該是很欠打的。結果我朋友給了一巴掌他然後搶回我們的folio就離開了。又不知道你們有被人群毆過嗎？這件事我從來沒有跟別人講過除了上個月我跟我那班最好的朋友說了一下。所以年輕時我很暴躁就是這樣子。13歲那一年，我早上和姐姐走路去了我家附近的giant買菜因為媽媽工作很忙媽媽弟弟下午回來吃的午餐都是我和姐姐一起煮的不過都是媽媽吩咐好的啦。那天，買完東西後我突然間想去捉‘豹虎’所以我跟姐姐說你先回去吧。可是過了5分鐘我覺得姐姐一個人回去很危險所以趕快試下能夠追會她嗎。一路上看不到姐姐我就說不可能能夠走那麼快的。我找着找著突然看到一班逃學的馬來人在路邊撒尿，我就當作沒看到經過了他們，他們突然就喊我‘ dik，mari sini kejap’ 我也不知道為什麼傻傻的走過去結果還沒到他們的面前3個人不停的用他們的頭盔向我的頭，身體一直打，我用力的擋結果擋到進去大水溝裡，有一個華人aunty走來那時候他們就快點上摩托離開了。aunty還問我‘做咩也打架’我回她‘呃點知哦’。所以小的時候那麼壞事有原因的比如說從學校二樓直接跳到地面試過嗎？我就試過了。

不久後，大考到了，我靠著我那天生的本領左看看右看看結果考到班上第四名整個下午班三百多個學生裡的第九如果加上早上班的話，我是481個學生裡的75名。我歷歷在目結果上了唯一兩班精英班的第二班。運氣還是跟著我一直走結果又是考到了那班的第四全級的45名又再上去第一班了。早上班有點悶，我覺得周圍的人都比我厲害，在第一班裡，我的名次永遠都在30-35名但是如果我去第二班的話就是第二第三了。哈哈。混著混著到了初中三，我還是一樣懶散的過著生活，可是我修身養性了很多。可能長大了會想了不再那麼的壞蛋。唯一很多人還是很討厭我的就是我那一張嘴。得罪太多人了啦！我還記得六月到了，還有三個月就是PMR了。頓時，很擔心怕考不好成績因為我不想我媽媽希望。我媽對我的寄望很大。我姐留了很多很多很多的練習書給我原因是她太懶了很多都沒做，我就把它全部都做完。書應該才讀了一兩遍罷了。就去考了。我每天看到我媽媽跪在地上為我禱告（如果有宗教歧視的可以不用看），可能是這一份真情吧讓我每次去教會都會想起我要做這個做那個來報答我的媽媽。我不可以讓她失望之類的。我從小就是基督徒了不過就是那種什麼都無所謂的那種。不過form two那年起，我什麼都照著牧師聖經裡的教導，唯一讓我時常記得的也是我媽常跟我說的，‘順服是智慧的開端’因為我很叛逆永遠不聽我媽媽說的所以她每次都說這個來要我聽她的。結果，我變得超乖的。我一直做我的練習做到我有一種感覺這個題目會出現在考試裡，結果真的一模一樣的題目果然在華文作文裡看到。我高興的不得了。然而，PMR考完了就是等成績的時候了。苦苦地等待終於到了那一天，可是我的學校遲了一天放榜別的學校都拿到了成績。還記得，我的阿姨，教會的aunty都問我考到好嗎。那時候，我不知道哪來的信心，到處告訴他們說應該考到不錯而且我很有信心可以全科A。知道我的人應該知道我是很‘hao lian’的咯。哈哈。結果，明天一早我媽媽一個人陪我去學校，一路上還叫我不要緊張，我跟她說我都沒有緊張過。不過，當我走進校門時看到一個平時都在15名以內的朋友就問了他，你考到好嗎？結果他才拿了6個A。這時候我緊張了！我加緊腳步到了我的班主任那裡，然後班主任對我笑了一下給了我的成績，我看了一看心裡從來沒有那麼一種的快感原來我真的拿了8個A。我給了我媽媽看。這時候，我看到了，我媽媽的眼眶都紅了，有點淚可是她沒有把淚流出來。我看到了感動到我自己也有一點淚了，可是男人流血不流淚所以我趕快去找別的朋友問好了。我還上了報紙因為有記者來，我還把那份報紙留到今天呢。其實，我有點羨慕那些家長能夠給他們的兒子獎勵就是一科A Rm100 那種，可惜我都沒有！可是，那時我還不會想，跟媽媽透露了說我朋友們都這樣那樣我什麼都沒有。我媽媽跟我說她沒有那麼多錢不能給我那麼多，Rm 100 當獎勵夠嗎？我說也可以就拿了。哈哈。

我從小就很窮了，家裡很爛，到了19歲那一年家裡稍微裝修了一點才肯讓朋友來。說出來都沒有人相信，我13歲就出來打工了。每年的11月和12月學校假期我都會去打工，因為媽媽只能週一至週五每天給我RM 1 的零用錢其他的都沒有了。所以我為了要買我要的東西我都一定會去打工。我做過電子廠，做electronic的，幫忙做車wiper的，waiter，promoter，和最好又是最高工錢的工就是Astro公司。賺到的錢讓我可以買多一兩件新年衣，改裝我的電腦，買摩托車，電話等等。我的人生中第一架電話用了我兩個月的薪水就是Nokia 6680 Rm1400. 我高中五才擁有了我人生的第一部電話，到現在我還在用著它。我第二部電話就是我現在用的samsung galaxy s 也是前年才買的。我很高興，上帝很看顧我，讓我每一年無論是中學，大學都有獎學金。我很少跟我家裡要錢。我們家的兄弟姐妹不可能能夠像別人一樣每一個月都有媽媽爸爸的支助。慢慢等就有。我們都是打工打到要死的。還記得，在還沒有form 5前，我們一家都沒有機會到外面吃任何一餐，原因是外面的一餐我媽說可以買家裡的一個禮拜菜了。隨着我們幾姐弟的長大媽媽的負擔少了。我們也因為打工的來的工錢也蠻不錯所以，有空我們一家都會去外面吃吃東西的。21歲時，也是我大學的第一年，那時我參加了做那個 international debate 的 crew 然後得到一張買一送一的starbuck voucher。那次就是我人生中的第一杯starbuck。很高心終於能夠自己買一杯。電影呢，哈哈，我到現在看過的應該40部電影都還沒超過吧，第一部是digi 送我的，那時播着chronicle of narnia，一年頂多去電影五到八次吧。 club 也不過去過三次罷了還是同一間而且在21歲才去的。還有好多好多東西我都沒嘗試過的。我想不久的將來我一定能嘗試完的因為我要畢業了！

在感情中呢，在我19歲之前你們信不信我對怎樣可以追到女朋友，女生美不美一切都不在乎。朋友們都有了女朋友我還是單身那又怎樣因為我希望我找到的第一個也就是我的最後一個。但是這些都是電影還是小說裡面才會發生的。我到今天還是連一個女朋友都沒有交過。19歲那年過後，我對男女感情開始感興趣，我曾經喜歡過我自己的好朋友可是都沒有實際的行動過。不過在我 20歲那一年，我喜歡了一個我認為合適我的女生可是到最後還是被拒絕了。我為了得到她的芳心，我做了一些她喜歡的東西給她（那東西就不講了），還記得，那一天，就是那個禮拜唯一她有空的那一天，剛好也是我公公出殯的那一天，她並不知道我公公去世了，我答應要把那一樣東西給她，所以當一切所要做的都做完過後我飛車到了她的家給了她我為她準備的禮物然後算是跟她表白吧。因為我很膽小所以我猜她也明白我的心意吧。可是還是被拒絕了。那是我第一次覺得那麼的傷心，我困擾了三天，想呀想我到底什麼不好呢？ 可能真的我不夠好不適合她吧。但我很不甘願，我自認是多麼好的一個男生咧。所以說愛情不能說誰人比較好就誰適合誰的。過後，我都沒有過喜歡的女生。就算有都是蜻蜓點水似的喜歡，就是我會對她突然間的好，關心她還是什麼的，如果她是無動於衷我就會停止。所以到現在還是找不到合適的人。如果有看我的blog的就知道我曾經寫過一個blog就是我想要變壞。不過，今年開始，我覺得我變壞了。我開始有去喝酒和去club了。不是說有去club和喝酒就是壞人，只不過我對我個人的改變覺得變壞了。是真的，這半年我變壞了。不過，至少開始體驗到生活了。曾經有人跟我說，男生要有點壞壞女生才喜歡不能太乖。真的嗎？ 沒有答案。不過很多女生都以為我是壞蛋呢。哈哈。我不喜歡女生比我有錢可能是我從小給人看不起吧。所以我不要受別人的白眼說我是靠誰誰的。也許可能有一天我的觀點會變因著環境的改變。我可能會為了上位而變得如此的無情，有誰會知道呢～

如今，還有幾個月就要畢業了。我想讀master可是一定要有scholarship不然不可能讀。可是我又想出來做工，因為有錢就會有車，有車就會有人要了。世界是現實的。 其實我可以直接跳PHD因為本地大學如果是first class student可以直接跳master不用讀。但我不想因為，PHD讀了大多都是做lecturer的。我不想我一生都那麼悶的度過。我很想到國外讀書。如果有人知道怎樣可以申請到外國的獎學金可以跟我分享一下。現在，還是先考好我最後兩個semester的考試吧。希望能賺很多很多的錢。讓我媽媽不用做工，陪她去這裡去哪裡。哈哈哈。skip了那麼多還是那麼多廢話，好啦！廢話說完了。嘻嘻 ^.^

 

2010 年的聖誕節合照（第一次全家合照）

The Day

Is the day really coming?

Everyone seems to pass the rumors that the day is really coming

According to the scientist if the day is really coming

First! darkness

Second ! Destruction

Thirds ! Boom! Gone! Death!

Counting the days from now we are still have exactly one more month to go

If the day really coming what i wanted to do the most

I would say family gathering !

Some of my friends starting to check on the flight ticket

They planing to fly back to their home immediately if this really happens

Some even saying that if there is something extraordinary happens

They will straight away driving back to their home before the day

Will it be too late

So, will it really happens?

No one knows

Frankly speaking i do hope it is real

Because it can help to end my life fast and goes to the heaven

Where i can gather with my heavenly father and the angels

The place where no worries no hatred no tears no suffer to be found

Sometimes i just feel that human is so helpless

Even the greatness in technologies would not be able to stop the disaster

Rather than blaming the thing happening surrounding

Why don we just settle ourselves down

Take a deep breath and goes into a deep meditation

To recall the things we have done

whether the good or the bad

What have we really contributed

So that we can think and act differently as present

We human being will never start to afraid until we are facing the death end

For me the most horrible or terrifying matter is not death

But looking back to those awful deeds we have done

Without any mercy just to promote ourselves

To get whatever we wish or hope regardless the price paid

What a life

Vacation and self-reflection

剛從泰國回來覺得假期真好因為假期讓我有機會去旅行並放鬆自己

感覺自己emo了很久不知道是為了什麼

不過假期的來臨讓我重新找回自己讓自己重新有鬥志去追求我想要的東西

泰國之旅很不錯

讓我有機會見識一些我一直都聽聞而未成見過的東西

哈哈！

另外這也是我一年後又有機會拍照的時刻了因為我每一年都會想辦法去旅行一次

我一般很少拍照因為都沒什麼好拍

不過到了旅行我就會一直拍

我這個人很少會說自己的事給別人聽

很多事都會想自己會有辦法去解決不然就廢話一大摞嘻皮笑臉一副不認真的樣子

終於那天喝茶我想我朋友說了我小時遇見的其中一件不愉快的事一件我從來沒跟人說過的事

雖然看起來真的很沒什麼就小事一件

但這讓我無時無刻都提醒自己一定要成為很有power的人

不能讓人欺負我與我家人

這也為什麼我一時會讓人討厭因為做東西很趕還是什麼的

但每一次想到感情戀愛我就會想難道我真的有什麼問題嗎

問題是在我長得很像不認真的人嗎

還有些朋友說我長得有點像play boy

stick double nerve （粵語） （粘雙靜）

我這什麼樣子難道真的那麼有問題

長得都不怎麼帥又沒有很挺的鼻子皮膚又黑這都有機會成為play boy

我說天啊！

其實我到現在我才真正認真追過一個女生而卻還被人拒絕那個
到現在一個女朋友都沒交過真是的

有時看上的別人看不上你所以說如果真的有機會找到自己喜歡的別玩玩

所以我無時無刻都available 哦 哈哈哈哈！！

不過現在目前為止最重要的不是戀愛而是前途

我想呀想到底我六月畢業後要幹嘛呢

我這半年還能保持我 First Class 的成績嗎

畢業後要去讀master 還是跳 PHD

有人說degree升級的機會很少只能打工

但幸運遇到貴人的話就不同說了可能還有當老闆呢

人的生活就那麼多的不肯定

世界末日的預期又要到了

究竟會變到怎樣無人知曉

我相信！

（恩惠，憐憫，平安，從父神和他兒子耶穌基督，在真理和愛心上，必常與我們同在）

                                                                                               （約翰二書 1：3)

Holiday!

“To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life’s but a walking shadow; a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.”

 

Life is just like a life brief candle,it walks fast it goes fast too. I am about to finish my internship in Penang after being 2 months here, unconsciously. Now, i am just having another 4 weeks more for my internship before going back to my university for my last 2 semester studies. As the poem i posted above, time flies and all my yesterday have lighted fools because I have actually doing and learning nothing during my internship period but wasting my time and passing my credit only. This condition totally fulfilling the quote   “To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day'' for my life in this 3 months practical period.

Well, finally, I can back to my hometown to see my lovely mummy on this coming Friday due to the Hari Raya public holiday. What a terrible summer break I am having this year as the changes made by the university extended our internship period from 10 weeks to 12 weeks which means i have not a single day of holiday for this semester break. Pathetic! That's why i am always anticipating to go back to my hometown so that i can meet with my friend and have some gathering with my relatives, maybe. This Hari Raya holiday is just came in time so that I can travel back to my home. Anyway, for my Malays' friend, I would like to wish them '' SELAMAT HARI RAYA'' as they have just gone through a harsh period before they can enjoy their great festive season. Therefore, let's enjoy the holiday together  (^.^)

Photo Taken During The Site Visit

2012 年

我回來了！！真的太久沒進來了，剛登入時還嚇了我一跳，怎麼東西都不一樣了呢。東按西按的果然有效！ 最後還是成功進來了。哈哈。

在檳城生活也有兩個月了吧。覺得這裡還蠻不錯的因為東西都很便宜如果跟我的家鄉相比。另外，在這裡的實習也很輕鬆。如果朋友們有follow我的面子書的話一定就覺得我來檳城實習就好像來旅遊似的。檳城們的朋友們都對我很好因為他們很照顧我也時常帶我到一些所謂很有名的攤位吃東西。很開心。唯一不好的事就是沒有結交過任何一位的女性朋友。不過還好啦，我的生活也不就差不多一樣。所以沒什麼好奇。不過，在這裡也同時結交了五位新的朋友。他們都是來自別的大學也是跟我一樣來到檳城第二大橋這裡實習。很開心能與他們結交。

另外，這個月也是倫敦奧運會的舉行月，每一個週末和每一天放工後我都呆在電視機前守候着希望能看到我國的選手們會有一番作為然後為我國拿下榮譽的獎牌。這裡我也要恭喜我國的羽毛球英雄李宗偉為我國拿下了這一屆的第一面銀牌。不過，有時也會替那些選手們傷心因為他們付出了他們的青春和時間就為了今天的成就可是就是當比賽在進行時失誤而被淘汰！哎！看到他們哭時我的心也跟他們一起哭了。還記得昨天看的一項表演，體操。選手們紛紛出現失誤跌倒結果一直哭到最後。也許是求勝心急吧～

 最近覺得我很健康因為我每天都去游泳一個小時然後每天都十點半就睡了。不管怎樣，還是希望大家能健健康康和生活愉快。 ^.^  

Rejected

Rejected, rejected, rejected and being rejected again. What a life! Am i really born to be rejected. Trying my best which is my very best every-time whenever i am chatting, communicating and doing things but yet the outcome are terrible. People always take things for granted like what you are doing are supposed to do and the price that you have paid will never get in any return values. What I can say here is life is harsh.

Uhmm... I think I shall get myself moving forward and try out something new so to get the dull life washed. Opss, here is an updated news since friends are asking to share. Two more months later I will be going to Penang for my Industry Training concerning about the Penang second bridge construction. It is a good news that I was adopted and I hope I can learn something new there so to magnify my knowledge about civil engineering. The only worry that I have is the accommodation problem as I have no relatives there. Staying in friend's house like giving quite a lots of problem to their family as I will be the ''interceptor'' all the times. Trying to figure it out later~

On the other hand, I am started to get bored with the university life. Not to say others university life but it is only mine. Keeping myself in the room days and nights except lunch and dinner really meaningless. Though birthday was passed days ago but I am just wishing that I could get a car here so that I might be inviting friends around to hang out. Thus, started to pay my attention on used cars now. Hope to get a cheap, nice and not-too-old car. ^>^

Now, I am just anticipating for the coming up trip planned by me and my coursemates. First, having a 一路向北 trip all the way from JB, SEREMBAN, KL, PENANG then Thailand and back to PENANG, KL and JB again. Next, going to KUKUP again for mind and soul relaxation together will all the coursemates. All these will be happening starting from next week.. Yeepie~~~

Enjoy ENjoy ENJOY till the Max Max MAX !!!